Being the artist of your own life implies taking constant leaps of faith. It’s a very personal journey that often those around you won’t be able to grasp. The last thing to do is to seek validation from outside.
I meet people who seem to struggle with how complicated their life has become almost every day. Things took a strange turn one faithful day and the opposite of the expected happened – peace was lost. What seemed like a wonderful, hope-filled decision, turned out to be the beginning of a partially-revealed nightmare.
You thought this was best for you, and although it’s not all bad, you are as far away from happy as can be.
You tried to get some support from those around you but you’re battling on two fields. On one hand, you’re trying to make yourself believe that what goes on in your life right now is somewhat normal and it’s somehow going to get better. You need people to tell you it’s going to get better. On the other hand, you want someone to tell you that you’re right. The situation stinks and the only way out is taking a step in a different direction and starting anew, no matter what complex choices and turns that would imply.
You spend so many hours of your day trying to fix things, fix things, fix things. Mostly in your imagination, talking to yourself, as in real life nothing ever seems to improve. You’ve been stuck in this situation for so long that nothing else seems like an option. You keep going, shouldering a nagging feeling that something’s not right. Every day, without a break.
You already know you’re not the only one. You already know life is tough in worse ways for many out there. You’ve heard those around you complaining about the exact same things and telling you this is it, work with what you’ve got. But you also know this is not you. This sad, fake, complicated situation is just not you. You created it, you pushed for it, you took the wrong decision. You didn’t know any better, but now you do. Now you can see it clearly. What next? What happens next? You have to make a decision supported by firm actions. Most probably it’s something your close ones will disagree with. It’s big and it’s messy. You’ll be alone for a while and there are no guarantees you’ll have any real support.
You know that no matter how long you’ll continue to drag things, this step is the real next step to be taken regardless of all the dances and hops you’ve distracted yourself with along the way.
Will you wait?
Will you do it?
Photo by Edu Lauton